NEXT YEAR - FUN OR FAIL ?

i'm not quiet sure if next year (grade 12) will be awesome or stupid. my courses are okay, but i failed french & if i were to take it again next year, i'd get a whole set of new teachers and the order of my blocks would be switched around - but i might need it for post secondary cause i don't know where i wanna go with life. sometimes i go to bed thinking next year will be academically harder? sometimes i wonder will i make better friends or even more friends ? i also wonder if i'll even have a good year.. sometimes i wonder what the last two nights of grad are going to be like for me - who i'm going with, who's in my limo, what i'm going to wear, and what i'm going to do. sometimes i wonder even if i'll go to any grad parties - not that i'd ever be invited, because i don't drink : will that change ? i have a limited amount of friends at the moment, because of stupid drama wait actually i have no idea why they hate me ? i wonder a lot but i honestly think if things stay the same way they are right now - i probably won't have much fun at grad : the real party would be AFTER i graduate, with my NEW start on life.