WHAT TO DO ?

in a dilemma , i don't know what to do anymore. how do i fix things back to what they were ? what happens if this doesn't go away, what are we going to do ? i'm scared , this will ruin us. i can't handle all this pressure. i'm scared that this will push me apart from you cause i'm scared it'll happen again. and if it doesn't that i won't be able to stop it next time. we've done it so many times, how are we supposed to stop ? i can't stop being upset anymore , i don't know how to fix things.