NEXT YEAR - FUN OR FAIL ?

i'm not quiet sure if next year (grade 12) will be awesome or stupid. my courses are okay, but i failed french & if i were to take it again next year, i'd get a whole set of new teachers and the order of my blocks would be switched around - but i might need it for post secondary cause i don't know where i wanna go with life. sometimes i go to bed thinking next year will be academically harder? sometimes i wonder will i make better friends or even more friends ? i also wonder if i'll even have a good year.. sometimes i wonder what the last two nights of grad are going to be like for me - who i'm going with, who's in my limo, what i'm going to wear, and what i'm going to do. sometimes i wonder even if i'll go to any grad parties - not that i'd ever be invited, because i don't drink : will that change ? i have a limited amount of friends at the moment, because of stupid drama wait actually i have no idea why they hate me ? i wonder a lot but i honestly think if things stay the same way they are right now - i probably won't have much fun at grad : the real party would be AFTER i graduate, with my NEW start on life.

GRADUATION ISSUES.

graduation is a huge thing, and can turn out to be a tragedy. if you put too much stress upon yourself you'll be for sure a victim of a major breakdown. things that can go wrong: having to set up the limo ride, the people in the limo, figure/get all the money from them, doing your friends makeup/hair, having to do your own, paying off your parents or getting money for the dress / hair / nails & hoping it doesn't go wrong. having to deal with last minute cancels, grad dates getting sick , people drinking stupidly, not having enough time etc. if that happens you're going to have the worst grad ever, but to handle this stress just say NO. it's stupid how much pressure can be put on one person, share the reponsibilities equal.. and in the end hopefully and wish things go right. no ones going to have a PERFECT grad - somethings most likely going to go wrong.

WHAT TO DO ?

in a dilemma , i don't know what to do anymore. how do i fix things back to what they were ? what happens if this doesn't go away, what are we going to do ? i'm scared , this will ruin us. i can't handle all this pressure. i'm scared that this will push me apart from you cause i'm scared it'll happen again. and if it doesn't that i won't be able to stop it next time. we've done it so many times, how are we supposed to stop ? i can't stop being upset anymore , i don't know how to fix things.